Find What Feels Good

Do you ever wake up with an inner conflict that has you torn between whether to enjoy your life, be where you are or whether to GO OUT and get out of your comfort zone?

Well, surprisingly, I do.

I used to hate both these “philosophies”. Both contradicting each other but both claiming to help you improve your life, find yourself, and what not. But it turns out I had both of them wrong….

For me getting out of your comfort zone meant forcing yourself to do things in ways you don’t want to. Trying everything and anything. Whereas loving what you have right now meant being happy with what you have and just flowing through life without wanting more.

Now it may be that I misinterpreted both these school of thoughts, or it may be that the innumerable self help sites which force their opinion on you, do not delve much into their meanings. Nonetheless, I think I had an epiphany today…

So I wake up today sick and feeling awful. Cold, cough, and all the irritants that occupy this condition were dragging me down. I desperately wanted to feel better and be able to go to college, so I did what I do when I’m clueless. Yoga.

This post is not about yoga or its benefits. So don’t worry I will not list a 1000 reasons to practice yoga whether you want to or not.

Anyways, I like the fact that I can get my mind off things when I do some routines so usually when I do not feel “hippie”, I find a yoga for that situation. Sure enough, it was ” yoga for when you are sick” today. And like all the other times, Google (God bless for Google), listed a million links and videos which had the power to help me (no matter how remotely).

This is where my conflict or rather internal argument began. There is this one yoga channel that I absolutely love (Yoga with Adriene) and I love to explore new videos and routines she posts. Ofcourse there was a yoga routine for when you’re sick. And it began,
“I am too comfortable with Adriene now, shouldn’t I explore more channels? See what they have to offer”
“But Adriene’s the best. Other channels are boring and monotonous, you know it…”
“Yeah, but I haven’t tried all of them yet, let’s try a new instructor today”.

So the get out of you comfort zone department won, and I was trying to follow a different channel which I could only bear for 5 mins and was back with Adriene after that.

Sad on my inability to try out new stuff, it finally hit me….

Both these philosophies are same in their basic meaning. Find what feels good. (Something that Adriene keeps reinforcing and reminding us in every video).

Both the thoughts want us to explore new things. Where the first tells us to go and try things which intrigue us and not be afraid to step out of the routine, the other tells us to explore new areas in things we love already.

They both want us to explore and find new stuff that we can genuinely enjoy. In other words, FIND WHAT FEELS GOOD.

So if I like coffee, I don’t have to force myself to have tea every morning. I am allowed to enjoy my coffee. Maybe try different forma of it and see which one I love. And if, someday, a type of tea, say green tea, intrigues us, makes us think,
“Yeah, I’d like to know how it tastes” …we should go and try it.

And there you have it. My brain’s bs out on this blog. Now I don’t know what makes sense and what does not, for I am sick and not in my senses. But all I want to say is, find what feels good and have fun.
Bbye! 🙂

Aprajita Rana

Onism

But I am stuck here with one vessel
Finite, in an infinite world.

The morning sky
The wet grass
They’re infinite.

In number, in presence
In space and being
They are uninhibited.

Onism*, sorrow,
A nagging feeling
I am not enough
To live and see
All the gardens, animals and trees.

I wish I had 10-20 bodies
I could’ve gone and seen much more
But I am stuck here with one vessel
Finite, in an infinite world.

 

(*Onism :the frustration of being stuck in just one body, that inhabits only one place at a time.
This poem was inspired by a YouTube video which I happened to watch the other day for I was intrigued by the title. Click here to watch it)

Picture Credits: AAKRITI HANS

“words will never hurt me” They do!

Deeply Eccentric

“Words are powerful. They can either create or destroy.” – Anonymous

WORDS! What a beautiful medium humans got, to express their feelings, emotions and thoughts. often, this beautiful medium acts as a deadly poison. Words, most of the time, are venemous for a relationship, for a person’s Self esteem, their reputation and what not.

I think about this saying “sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.” I don’t agree with this. Because words do hurt and coming from someone who’s so important to you. Someone you love, just multiplies the pain by zillion times.

Bad choice of words could ruin the whole thing for you. Words strike someone like an arrow, released from its bow, too late to take it back will cause damage.

I’ll talk about both sides of the coin. If someone else’s words could hurt and may break you then remember…

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To work or not to work

 

Work. Your late. Run.
Sit. Concentrate. But do have fun.
Enjoy what you do.
Do what you love.
Be focussed, be attentive,
Be mindful now.

But tell me really honestly!
How many of these can I really be?
If I’m so restarained
How can I be free?
If I’m so worried,
When will I be happy?

Advices from here and there too
Ways and methods to “be you”
Tips to live and tips to explore
The inner self, the very core.

But what if all this is overrated,
Why work so hard
When you can be satiated
With a good book and coffee
With little stillness and a good sleep
Dolce Far Niente*
Doing nothing
Not really surviving, just being.

*Dolce Far Niente, loosly translated to the sweetness of doing nothing is a famous poem by Paul Hamilton Hayne. These words also feature in the famous movie Eat Pray Love. This post is what I felt when I was reminded of this phrase yesterday. Thank you for your time, have a nice day, keep smiling 🙂

Aprajita Rana

The Time I got a Tattoo on New Year

2016 was amazing. It sure had its ups and downs, good times-bad times, some really awesome times and some really awful ones. But it was great nonetheless.

I got out of my comfort zone, explored new things, and did (almost) everything I had resolved to. In fact, 2016 proved me and my belief, that the universe is toxic wrong and gave me opportunities I didn’t even know exist.

Although, it is over, I’m happy to move forward and welcome the adventures 2017 has to offer. Seeing how it has started, I do have pretty high hopes!

As the title of this post tells you! I GOT INKED! I got my FIRST TATTOO EVER!!!!

In a surprising turn of events, my mother, who is dead against tattoos, piercing, and other such body modification, said….
“You know, it’s 2017! Go get a tattoo! Do something fun! Be adventurous! Do what you’ve wanted to do!”

Now I don’t know what exactly bought about this sudden change in her attitude! But whatever it was….THANK YOU! Honestly, from the bottom of my heart…THANK YOU!

Taken aback as we were, me and my sister knew that this is once in a lifetime opportunity! Never again will we get this permission! And if we do get a tattoo without mum’s consent….it’ll have to be a hidden one.

So, we did what was supposed to be done. We cashed in this opportunity by getting ready, finding our tattoo designs, finding a trusted tattoo parlor, and going there only to find it has shut down, all in a matter of 2 hours.

One would think this would’ve weakened our spirits, but then you don’t know us. We are two of the most lazy people in this world but when it comes to craziness, we’re unstoppable!

So we get our data pack renewed, scan google for good tattoo parlours and sure enough, decide on one of them, ‘Scorpio tattoo inn’, dash to the place and begin!

I chose the word INVICTUS. Taken from a poem of the same name by William Ernest Henley (click here to read it), I have been obsessed with how simple yet powerful and profound this word (and poem) is, ever since I read it two years ago. Invictus in Latin means Undefeated and/or Unconquerable. Two things I believe I am, and always want to be.

 

So I got the word inked just as it is supposed to be….simple yet powerful. Only to later on realize that my name means the same thing (to be fair my mom pointed it out…coincidence….i don’t know, maybe).

A little secret, until the time my tattoo was complete, I literally had no realization of what….WHAT I had done. In fact, I still haven’t fully realized it. I mean I know cognitively and rationally the extent of my actions, but have I understood this yet…No I don’t think so!

Anyways, the realization is slowly dawning on me, and I am getting excited now. Excited for what is going to come. Excited for the adventures, the ups and downs, the highs and lows that 2017 has to offer.

I hope I remain Invictus. I hope I do justice to my tattoo. And I hope I manage to live every moment (whether good or bad) with acceptance, love and bliss.

To everyone reading this, I wish you and your family a Happy-Happy New Year. May we all have an exciting, adventurous and fulfilling year ahead.

K. Thanks. Byeee! 💜💜

Aprajita Rana

List of Gifts I’d love to receive

Now I know this is probably a bad idea and sort of greedy but I’m still gonna do it!
If you’re a “Friends” fanatic, you’d remember how whenever you give a gift to Rachel on her birthday you “stick to the list, always stick to the list”. And honestly, I think that’s a great idea….i mean yeah you’re good friends, but who knows a person (and their needs) better than the person herself eh?

Anyways, let it be clear that I’m not as strict as Rachel, and I accept everything. But still since I love you all (and most of all I love myself)….here’s a list of things that I’ve always wanted, so feel free to refer to it before my birthday…which ain’t too far 😛

1) Harry Potter Series
Now if you know me, you knoww that I ABSOLUTELY love Harry Potter and I’m a Potterhead. However, that said, I currently do not possess the complete set of Harry Potter books. I want them. And it’s no secret…

2) Dean Winchester’s Jacket
This is something I’ve looked for far and wide and I am at a point where I not only want it I need it! I mean…it’s DEAN WINCHESTER’S JACKET!!! How could anyone not want it.

3) GOT or LOTR series
Here comes another set of book series. Both of them have been in my reading list (yup im a bookworm) for a long long loonnngggg time. So yep, they would certainly be appreciated.

4) Puppyyy/Kitten
This was supposed to be at number one. Because I want them so much they’re in my bucket list!!!!! I reallyyyy want a pet! But here’s the glitch….the people I live with (aka family) do not allow me to adopt or buy one. However, there is no rule against getting a pet as a gift. So if you love me….you’ll choose this and also probably warn my parents! 😛 

5) Cool fandom Merch!
Yep yep yep! Any fandom’s merch ESPECIALLY LILLY SINGH AND HARRY POTTER will be greatly appreciated and your efforts will not go in vain. I’ll cherish you ALWAYS. You know for UNICORNS (specifically those who have onesies) stay together.

6) Boots/Cool shoes
Well yeah I’m a bigfoot. But I also like big boots! If you’re not a really close person….do not give this for you’ll never get the size right. On the other hand….if you are (and the parameter for that is the frequency of memes and fb posts i tag you in) this is the easiest way out 😉

7) Wallet/Bags/Handbags
I have no idea why….but I’ve been obsessed with these things lately. So if you’re a good friend (however not tagged frequently) this one’s for you XD
However, getting a combined thing from the first four items won’t be bad idea either!

8) Candles
I love candles. That’s another weird fact about me. (So much information being revealed today! ) Scented ones and big candles and the ones with cute shapes and the stout ones I LOVE EM ALL! (no floating ones though). Even though I wish someone would get me the ones Lupin had in Prisoner of Azkaban where he taught Harry patronus charm, I know they aren’t available anywhere (but if you could get em I’ll love you forever). So you could get me other types of candles but not sooo good that i don’t wanna burn em. You know…somewhere in the middle.

9) Jewellery
Right. Though with special focus on cute neckpieces, earrings, unique things, again merch, and yep charm bracelets!!!

10) Makeup things (maybe)
Alright last and probably the least, makeup things. I think the heading implicitly explains that i don’t know s**t about makeup. But then again YouTube tutorials have piqued my curiosity! So why not? (Also, remember Lilly aka superwoman had released her lipstick brand “Bawse” so why not :P)

So that’s it for now rather this year. This post should be of great help to anyone confused ( Atleast I hope you are and thinking about such stuff ). With that said, I should mention that I love you guys already, otherwise you’d not be there in my life. So just keep doing what you are doing. It makes me happy! See ya…bbye! 😀

Aprajita Rana

For Im a Restless Soul

I scoff at the calmness
You wish to inculcate in me
The tranquility, the sereneness
Of meditation and quiet time.

I laugh at your attempt to slow me down
To make me look and feel
The world around
And appreciate the “abundance” and scenes

Im a person meant to be crazy
Im a person who is alive in stress
I dont sit still you see
I have a soul which is restless

I’ll probably even defy death
And haunt the lanes of my cemetery
So how dare you tell me to calm myself
My life needs to be a troubled memory!

Aprajita Rana

Daily Dose of Inspiration – Be Brave

Be Inspired..!!

Each person living on this planet wants to feel superior in a way or another. There is no man on earth who has no ambition or who dont want to improve his life to the better. As humans we come with a built in desire to rise up. Brave people do their best to reach their goals, to improve their lives and to rise while cowards do something completely different. They don’t try to rise in order to be better but they pull others down in order to remain above!! If you want to be brave in life then you must understand that putting others down in order to rise up is a sign of lack of courage. Most people are not brave enough to face life problems and that’s why they choose the easy way which can make them feel good about themselves without doing anything useful. This might seem like an intelligent move but…

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The Shore and the Waves

Just For My Love

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The sea waves hit the shore like never before. They reminded of shattering glass, of broken hearts and of the storms of life. The miracles were often too less in this part of the country, but they did happen, time and again. Last year, this place was among the top tourists spots around the world, and that made everyone proud. There was a festival held to celebrate the place’s 89th spot in the list. This happens a lot here, we do find ways to make ourselves happy. This time, it was the 89th place in a list produced by the US, enough to tell you that called for a celebration.

But how? This place was one of the most noisy, disturbed, dark places ever, Matthew thought, as he took a sip of coconut water he longed to throw away, but couldn’t bring himself up to it. The clouds didn’t seem…

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We’re going on….

It’s a 160 second red light for a 30 second green. Makes no sense does it? To wait! Wait for your turn.
But to be fair you’re already late. Late for that meeting/class/other things Monday has brought along with it. So in a perfect pandemonium of cars, buses, scooties, bikes, trucks, rikshaws, autos and cycles, let’s just take our chances. Let’s jump the light! Let’s go to the extremes of the road, the point where the footpath is half an inch away, and overtake the person in front. Ofcourse, we don’t know each other and probably never get to either. But i’ll beat him/her atleast. Who cares about the consequences. Hell we don’t even know what they could be. Let’s just go. Get going. Keep going. And keep going yet. We’re just some humans amongst other humans with stuff to do and things to achieve. We don’t know what we will do with them. Or what does anything mean. Why does anything exist. But we just need to keep going. So there, now we’ve crossed another light. And still we’re going on………

Aprajita Rana